What am I doing?

Okay, so i realize it has been way too long since my last post.  I am sorry that I have not been better about posting and keeping you all updated on what I am doing.

I have been back in the states for a little over a month and a half.  What am I doing now you might ask?  To that I say...great question!  Right now I am trying to figure out what avenue best fits my life and God's plan for me as I follow His call into full time missions.  Obviously I need to continue studying Spanish and that is one thing that I have been able to continue doing since I have been back.  Other than that I am working part time as a nanny for some of my close friends, filling in for some others at the church when they need ((which really has only been two days)), and spending a whole lot of time with my mom and the rest of my family.  God has blessed me with time, time to spend with those I love, time to dig into His word and who He is, time to grow, time to minister, time to pray, time to support, time to learn, time to rest ((this one is hard for me)), time to allow the Spirit to lead me.

As I have been seeking God and His will for my life I discovered that He was allowing me to go back to Nicaragua for a short trip.  I will be leaving Tuesday the 25th to go back for about a month.  I will be doing a lot of the same things I was doing over the summer.  Teaching English, helping with the church in Pochocuape, working with a medical team, and just getting to build relationships with people.  A couple of my friends will be graduation from seminary while I am there so I will get to be there to support them as they do that as well!  I could not be more excited to go back and see some of the growth that has happened since I left.  This trip is a huge HUGE gift that God has given me and I plan to glorify Him in it to the best of my ability.  Will you join me in praising Him for this amazing gift?!

What an awesome God we have that not only does He meet our  needs, but He also fulfills the desires and passions of our hearts!  You see I believe that if He puts something in our hearts to do He will bring it to fruition.  It may not be how we would plan, it may not be how we had hoped, and it may not be in our timing, but someday in the day of His divine choosing God will fulfill the thing that He has given you to hope for.  In the process of waiting be intentional.  Use the time He has given you to grow so that in the time that God has appointed you will be more prepared for the thing He has designed for you.  You see sometimes I think when we don't have the thing we hoped for we say "well it is up to God now and there is nothing I can do" while it may be true that we cannot make something happen, we can be preparing ourselves for when it does.  And I think the most important thing we can do in preparation is drawing close to God.  Because when the time comes it is Him we are going to need and it is Him who we need right now.  Good and bad, happy and sad, we must look to Him!  We must trust in Him.  We must rely on Him!

 "If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal.  And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.  If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing."                                                                                                                                  1 Corinthians 13:1-3