I have taken four short term mission trips to Nicaragua with my church, on my first trip in my sophomore year of high school is when God first called me to missions. At that point in my life I was not ready or willing to do this so I just ignored it for a long time. When I sit and think back on those years in my life I can see how God was still pursuing me even as I ignored Him. I can see how He has shaped my life and used different things to bring me to a point that I could say "yes" to Him. Because of my stubbornness I ignored what He had put on my heart for many years, until I just couldn't.
I was in my senior year when I decided to let go of my pride and submit to God's will for my life. As most do at that age, I was trying to decide where I would go and what I would do with the next years of my life. As I searched and searched I came up empty because the places I was looking were not the right ones. I knew deep down inside me what I was supposed to do, but I just didn't want that for my life. Within just a few weeks God orchestrated things in my life that made it clear to me that I could not afford to ignore Him any longer. Through a documentary He showed me that this great love of His was not something to hold on to. I had to share it and it could cost everything. God asked me to become okay with the fact that as I followed Him I would have to lay everything I loved in His hands and trust Him with it. And that took me a long time. Honestly it is a daily battle, sometimes hourly.
There were so many things God used to reveal to me that missions was the only thing for me. After probably about four months of Him showing me around every turn, I asked my mentor if we could pray for one more sign. I mean I had been given countless, but I wanted to be extremely sure of this before I really gave in. About ten minutes after we prayed and asked for another sign God showed up twice to tell me this is in fact Him and this is His will. I decided that if He wasn't going to let it go then I was going to have to do it. You are probably thinking this is not the best attitude to have, and you would be completely correct. I didn't want to, but I was submitting to God's will for my life. If we are all honest with ourselves I think we could say that there are things like this in all of our lives. Things that we didn't necessarily want to do, but we laid down our pride and let God lead our lives.
You see, I have lived like Jonah: running away from what I knew God was asking of me. I have lived like Abraham: following God, trusting and obeying His will. There is something though that each of these men have in common, God used them. Yeah it took Jonah being swallowed by a fish for him to realize his stupidity, but then he did and God used him. And let me tell you there is nothing that brings more peace, hope, joy, growth, and love than living and doing what God asks of me. It might be scary, and seemingly make no sense to me at all, but it is the sweetest place to be.
God has done so many crucial things in my life to bring me to where I am today. Because He has done so much in such a small time I will be posting multiple blogs sharing smaller pieces at a time. God's faithfulness is streaked through my entire life and so much in these last few years pertaining to my near future. I hope you enjoy worshiping God with me as I share my story of Him with you. There is nothing I want more than to glorify God in this so please give it all to Him!
"If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. And
if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all
knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have
not love, I am nothing. If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing." 1 Corinthians 13:1-3
Wednesday, March 9, 2016
Tuesday, January 19, 2016
My Pursuit
Let me share with you why I chose to name my blog "Pursuing 13". I am pursuing a life that is characterized by one thing. Something that everyone in the world is searching for whether they know it or not. Many people are looking for it in the people they are around, their boyfriend or girlfriend, their spouse, their friends, their family. But they come up short every time so they look to what else the world has to offer hoping that maybe it will fulfill them. Some work harder and harder every day thinking that if they can just reach the "American dream" with a 401k and a fancy car that they will be happy. People go to things like food and alcohol thinking that maybe they can find happiness in that, yet they just become addicted and even more unhappy. The thing is the world cannot give them what they are looking for because what they are longing for is not of the world.
What people are looking for is love, true love. A love that is so full of grace and mercy that it chose to die for us. A love that is so powerful that it overcame sin and death! A love that wants to know us and have a relationship with us. This love cannot be given by any people or things in our lives. It is a love that only God can give us. His love is so perfect and so full and so rich that it chooses to accept us in our sin. God is this love, and He gives Himself to any and all who ask Him! This love is what I want my life to be defined by!
For many many years the passage 1 Corinthians 13:1-3 has been one of my very favorites, it is a chapter in the Bible that is extremely well known even if people don't even realize where it is from.
Most people think of 1 Corinthians 13 as the "love" chapter of the Bible, but I think of it as the "life" chapter. It is pasted on countless walls, and used in most weddings (my friend just got married the other day and they mentioned this verse) . You see verses 4-7 everywhere and some people don't even realize it is from the Bible. But to me this verse is so much more. It is what drives me to be who I am. It is the reason I accepted Gods call to be a missionary. This chapter explains a little bit of who God is; He is patient and kind, He is gentle and not easily angered, He is not arrogant or rude or resentful, but He rejoices is truth! God bears, believes, hopes and endures all things! His love NEVER fails, it NEVER ends because His love is eternal! All other things in this life will pass away but Gods love will go on forever. As a Christian I am called to love like God loves. I am imperfect and do not love like this all the time but I do strive for this each day and honestly it isn't me when I do love like this; it is God loving through me and I am just His vessel.
I know that the Message version is frowned on a lot...but I love the way it says 1 Corinthians 13 1-3
"If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don’t love, I’m nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate. If I speak God’s Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, “Jump,” and it jumps, but I don’t love, I’m nothing. If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don’t love, I’ve gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I’m bankrupt without love."
If I do not love I am nothing. That means that even if I am doing all these things in the church and saying they are for God the effect is no good if I am not giving love. I have done this so many times in my life and it is just exhausting. But when I finally listen to what God is telling me and I do them in love it is like this new energy is given to me. Because when I am doing them without love I am doing it all on my own, but when I finally choose to do it out of love it is no longer me. When I choose love it cannot be me, it is God and it is His love. I don't know why I ever try to do things on my own anyway, it is just silly. That is why I love the first three verses of this chapter! They remind me that love is what I am here to do and give. It gives me purpose to do life and to do it out of a place of genuine care for the world. My life is defined by the love that was poured out on me by God, so why wouldn't I share that in everything I do?! I enjoy so much to do things in God's love because that means I get to say to people that He is the reason and give Him all the credit! I would not be where I am without this great love of His. I wouldn't be who I am without His all consuming love.
So you ask me, "Why not just say 'Pursuing Love'?" Honestly it is because when most people see the word love they automatically think that I am looking for a man (and because I want to be hipster hahaha)...which I guess you could say I am ;) just not the kind of man most people would think of. I am in pursuit of a man who will give His love through me, the only man greater than all the troubles of this world, Jesus Christ. This is the passion God has put in my heart, to love people with His love. I want to live my whole life pursuing new ways to do this, that is why I will be spending my summer in Nicaragua. God has given me this extremely exciting (and scary) opportunity to love the people of Nicaragua and I am following Him there! He is already making the way and I just have to obey and say "yes" to what He is asking of me. While I am preparing and going I will be writing about how God is paving the way for me and how He is working while I am there.
What are you doing to pursue the love of Christ in your life?
"If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing."
1 Corithians 13:1-3
Praying that love is greater in your life each day!
What people are looking for is love, true love. A love that is so full of grace and mercy that it chose to die for us. A love that is so powerful that it overcame sin and death! A love that wants to know us and have a relationship with us. This love cannot be given by any people or things in our lives. It is a love that only God can give us. His love is so perfect and so full and so rich that it chooses to accept us in our sin. God is this love, and He gives Himself to any and all who ask Him! This love is what I want my life to be defined by!
For many many years the passage 1 Corinthians 13:1-3 has been one of my very favorites, it is a chapter in the Bible that is extremely well known even if people don't even realize where it is from.
Most people think of 1 Corinthians 13 as the "love" chapter of the Bible, but I think of it as the "life" chapter. It is pasted on countless walls, and used in most weddings (my friend just got married the other day and they mentioned this verse) . You see verses 4-7 everywhere and some people don't even realize it is from the Bible. But to me this verse is so much more. It is what drives me to be who I am. It is the reason I accepted Gods call to be a missionary. This chapter explains a little bit of who God is; He is patient and kind, He is gentle and not easily angered, He is not arrogant or rude or resentful, but He rejoices is truth! God bears, believes, hopes and endures all things! His love NEVER fails, it NEVER ends because His love is eternal! All other things in this life will pass away but Gods love will go on forever. As a Christian I am called to love like God loves. I am imperfect and do not love like this all the time but I do strive for this each day and honestly it isn't me when I do love like this; it is God loving through me and I am just His vessel.
I know that the Message version is frowned on a lot...but I love the way it says 1 Corinthians 13 1-3
"If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don’t love, I’m nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate. If I speak God’s Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, “Jump,” and it jumps, but I don’t love, I’m nothing. If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don’t love, I’ve gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I’m bankrupt without love."
If I do not love I am nothing. That means that even if I am doing all these things in the church and saying they are for God the effect is no good if I am not giving love. I have done this so many times in my life and it is just exhausting. But when I finally listen to what God is telling me and I do them in love it is like this new energy is given to me. Because when I am doing them without love I am doing it all on my own, but when I finally choose to do it out of love it is no longer me. When I choose love it cannot be me, it is God and it is His love. I don't know why I ever try to do things on my own anyway, it is just silly. That is why I love the first three verses of this chapter! They remind me that love is what I am here to do and give. It gives me purpose to do life and to do it out of a place of genuine care for the world. My life is defined by the love that was poured out on me by God, so why wouldn't I share that in everything I do?! I enjoy so much to do things in God's love because that means I get to say to people that He is the reason and give Him all the credit! I would not be where I am without this great love of His. I wouldn't be who I am without His all consuming love.
So you ask me, "Why not just say 'Pursuing Love'?" Honestly it is because when most people see the word love they automatically think that I am looking for a man (and because I want to be hipster hahaha)...which I guess you could say I am ;) just not the kind of man most people would think of. I am in pursuit of a man who will give His love through me, the only man greater than all the troubles of this world, Jesus Christ. This is the passion God has put in my heart, to love people with His love. I want to live my whole life pursuing new ways to do this, that is why I will be spending my summer in Nicaragua. God has given me this extremely exciting (and scary) opportunity to love the people of Nicaragua and I am following Him there! He is already making the way and I just have to obey and say "yes" to what He is asking of me. While I am preparing and going I will be writing about how God is paving the way for me and how He is working while I am there.
What are you doing to pursue the love of Christ in your life?
"If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing."
1 Corithians 13:1-3
Praying that love is greater in your life each day!
Thursday, September 24, 2015
Asking God for His heart
Why do we think that when we ask God to give us His eyes for the world, to give us His heart for the world, to move in our lives, to change our hearts we think He won't do it? Then when He does we are so surprised. Have you ever really prayed any of those things and expected God to actually do it? Maybe you have never thought to pray for it or maybe when you have you did it because it sounded nice at the time. But have you ever expected Him to come through on it? What if you meant it when you asked for His heart for the world? Do you believe God would give it to you?
I have prayed some of these things many times and some of the I definitely did not want God to come through on it. This week I asked God to show me His heart, and I really wanted Him to and I believed He would...but I was not expecting or prepared for what comes with His heart. You know the phrase "be careful what you wish for"? I have experienced a whole new meaning to it. When God shows you His heart you see the world differently. You love the world differently. You love people differently. He shows you the brokenness and it breaks your heart as it does His. I am so thankful that God showed me a piece of His heart this week, and that is just it...all He has shown me is a piece of it, meaning there is an infinite amount more that I cannot even fathom to see, and I am a brokenhearted mess. This world needs love, it needs people who will let Christ be the love in their life and touch those who are longing for something that they don't even know the need, something they don't even know exists. And the thing is that it's not only the world that we perceive as "poverty" or "third world" that needs this love. It's your neighbor right next door, your coworker, your classmate, your mom, your dad, your brother and sister, your child, your best friend...the list goes on. People need love, but not a love that is conditioned on what they do or if they love you back. A love that is full of grace and peace and mercy. A love that is deep and rich and sweet. A love that surpasses any and all understanding because it is so infinite that words cannot explain it and if there were words that could explain it they wouldn't make sense because a love like this seems impossible. This kind of love is not something we have on our own, but with Christ we have this love and we can love with this love. We can be this love. Christ is this love and if you have Him you have His love within you. Why are you withholding it? You could be the reason someone experiences what true love looks like. Love conquers all.
The thing is that love is not free. Love costs EVERYTHING. Are you willing to give up everything for love? God has shown me what it takes to love the way He does and it is not easy. He asks that we love with everything we have, with everything that we are, to give of ourselves as He have of Himself. Love is sacrifice. Christ showed us what ultimate, reckless, unfathomable, grace filled love looks like when He chose to take our punishment on the cross; bearing our sins, our shame, our guilt, our pain, and rising victoriously over it. God probably won't ask you to do what Jesus did in that respect, but I can guarantee you He will ask you to do things that most would say are crazy, reckless, and impractical for love. This world needs people who are willing to say "yes" when God asks them to do something uncomfortable to show His love. I am asking myself right now, am I willing to love like this? It is scary to think about it, but God has not given a spirit of fear but one of power and love and self-control (2 Timothy 1:7). Maybe God has already called you to love in big ways and you have, maybe He is now and you have to decide whether or not you are going to say "yes", and maybe He hasn't yet but is preparing you for when He will. Maybe all God is asking you to do right now is invite someone to eat with you, or to say hello, or to invite them to church or to just be a friend. Whatever it is He is asking of you remember that you don't go alone. He is there with you helping you through and loving them for you. I think that if we all took this challenge to love without fear this world could be a drastically different place. Love Costs Everything; in it holds the power to change the world.
Take the risk. It will be so worth it!
I have prayed some of these things many times and some of the I definitely did not want God to come through on it. This week I asked God to show me His heart, and I really wanted Him to and I believed He would...but I was not expecting or prepared for what comes with His heart. You know the phrase "be careful what you wish for"? I have experienced a whole new meaning to it. When God shows you His heart you see the world differently. You love the world differently. You love people differently. He shows you the brokenness and it breaks your heart as it does His. I am so thankful that God showed me a piece of His heart this week, and that is just it...all He has shown me is a piece of it, meaning there is an infinite amount more that I cannot even fathom to see, and I am a brokenhearted mess. This world needs love, it needs people who will let Christ be the love in their life and touch those who are longing for something that they don't even know the need, something they don't even know exists. And the thing is that it's not only the world that we perceive as "poverty" or "third world" that needs this love. It's your neighbor right next door, your coworker, your classmate, your mom, your dad, your brother and sister, your child, your best friend...the list goes on. People need love, but not a love that is conditioned on what they do or if they love you back. A love that is full of grace and peace and mercy. A love that is deep and rich and sweet. A love that surpasses any and all understanding because it is so infinite that words cannot explain it and if there were words that could explain it they wouldn't make sense because a love like this seems impossible. This kind of love is not something we have on our own, but with Christ we have this love and we can love with this love. We can be this love. Christ is this love and if you have Him you have His love within you. Why are you withholding it? You could be the reason someone experiences what true love looks like. Love conquers all.
The thing is that love is not free. Love costs EVERYTHING. Are you willing to give up everything for love? God has shown me what it takes to love the way He does and it is not easy. He asks that we love with everything we have, with everything that we are, to give of ourselves as He have of Himself. Love is sacrifice. Christ showed us what ultimate, reckless, unfathomable, grace filled love looks like when He chose to take our punishment on the cross; bearing our sins, our shame, our guilt, our pain, and rising victoriously over it. God probably won't ask you to do what Jesus did in that respect, but I can guarantee you He will ask you to do things that most would say are crazy, reckless, and impractical for love. This world needs people who are willing to say "yes" when God asks them to do something uncomfortable to show His love. I am asking myself right now, am I willing to love like this? It is scary to think about it, but God has not given a spirit of fear but one of power and love and self-control (2 Timothy 1:7). Maybe God has already called you to love in big ways and you have, maybe He is now and you have to decide whether or not you are going to say "yes", and maybe He hasn't yet but is preparing you for when He will. Maybe all God is asking you to do right now is invite someone to eat with you, or to say hello, or to invite them to church or to just be a friend. Whatever it is He is asking of you remember that you don't go alone. He is there with you helping you through and loving them for you. I think that if we all took this challenge to love without fear this world could be a drastically different place. Love Costs Everything; in it holds the power to change the world.
Take the risk. It will be so worth it!
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